What is the first thing a writer needs to prepare for a challenge such as this?
I have to admit when I sat down to start preparing for entering into Phase 1, my first thought
was how many blocks of chocolate I would need to get me through the
entire period. This is an important aspect to the writing process, but probably doesn't need to be planned more than a few hours
ahead of sitting down to write. My local supermarket is just around
the corner, and if I find I become agoraphobic during this
experience, I can also have it delivered. One of the many joys of
being a writer, you are always home to accept the internet parcels
you have been ordering while supposedly doing research.
Therefore, I turned my mind
once more to the preparation process, having assured myself that running out of
chocolate would not be an issue. The major concern with entering into
a project such as this is the fear of failure. I've put it all over
the internet that I'm going to be writing 10,000 words a day, what
happens if I sit down and nothing comes out?
To be honest, this had not worried me too much until I started to tell people of my plan. Even my loving family who know the ridiculous lengths I can push myself to out of pure stubbornness gasped and said 'But what if you run out of things to say?'
To be honest, this had not worried me too much until I started to tell people of my plan. Even my loving family who know the ridiculous lengths I can push myself to out of pure stubbornness gasped and said 'But what if you run out of things to say?'
'Not to worry,' I said, 'I have a secret weapon!'
(Well, I didn't actually say this, I muttered
something about having lots of good ideas and just not having the
time or the discipline to write them all down, which was the purpose
of this whole exercise if they had stopped to listen. However, I am a
writer of fiction, what is reality to me when I can tell truth as it
should have been?)
So, I will unveil for you now
my secret weapon:
A Muse.
(Did you just read that
anticlimactically? Really? Try it again and put a bit more oomph into
it this time! Thank you.)
The concept of a Muse is
obviously a very old idea, but I feel we have lost its true meaning
and effectiveness. What use have I for a beautiful woman to make me feel
jealous and disgruntled? Even a good looking man that just lay around
on a couch all day is not really going to help me write.
To put it bluntly, what I want
is someone else to blame. And I am not alone! That is to say, this
idea is not entirely mine. Recently I was listening to a TED talk on
creativity. The woman, and I can't remember who she was or what she did for which I apologize, was discussing the modern concept of the suicidal
creative figure. Her argument was that it is only a reasonably recent
phenomenon that creativity has been internalized to the individual.
Previously an artist would have their muse, or genius, which was a
supernatural being separate to them which gifted them with
inspiration. If that artist then wrote a particularly bad poem etc.,
no one blamed him exactly, it was his muse which had let him down. Of
course, he still didn't get paid and had to actually go and get a day
job, but that self consciousness which leads to self blame and then
to self destruction was not such an issue, so she argued.
She then
continued on that she had now developed for herself the belief in a
personalized, external, supernatural muse. After a particularly hard
day of bashing her head against a wall she called out to the world in
general to take note, that she had kept up her side of the bargain
and it was her muse which was to be held accountable. This then
brought laughter, and helped her to relax and took off the pressure.
As I was listening to this talk I
discussed this thought with God.
As you will find out soon
enough, I am one of those strange beings that never got rid of the
concept of the supernatural world. I converse on a daily, or even
minute by minute basis with a divine being who listens kindly, puts
me in my place when I'm being silly, and encourages me when I'm
getting down. This whole writing thing was actually his idea. So when
I heard this woman talking about blaming her muse, I similarly turned
to the air and said 'I also want it known that...' and then I paused.
'that every time I turn up God gives me something to write!' And that
was the first time I realiszd it was true. The only thing that has ever limited my writing was the amount of time I actually turned up
to do the task. No matter how blank my mind was when I sat down, if I
were faithful, God would turn up the inspiration.
Now, I am not at all saying
that my work is divine in any actual way, but I am sure that I have a
Muse who helps me and that I can blame if nothing is coming out. And
that, just that, is a huge relief. It is really the only reason I am
even thinking about this crazy adventure. I felt my Muse say that as
much as I wanted to write, he would give me ideas and help. With an
offer like that, why limit myself to just one book a year?
So, tip for today: find your
muse. The ultimate divine being works pretty well for me, but find
out whatever works for you, because the other way lies madness (or just
lots of blank pages and a career as a bank teller.)